The Dream

A week ago. I wrote my new post on my personal web-site. But it is an Russian. I think I should share this post with my friends, who speak an English too. Cause I have a big family and not only from my country!

I will try to translate it. My post has a poetry. I hope that idea of it would like. 

I want to go where the wave beats on the block

And the rocky reefs, and where

Able to devote the substance - water

I. Savvina

I'm starting my post from poems of my friend "Vnutrimorskoe" ("In side of sea").  And I'm doing it for the reason.

A few weeks ago I was in St. Petersburg. It is one of my favorite cities in Russia. I love it not only cause it's St. Petersburg. No. No. I think, I can breath here more freer than in Moscow. The people in the South Capital of Russia (yeah we give this name for this city sometime. and i think it's truly name) more kindly, they are different. And for sure, the architecture. I feel the history when I see the constructions of St. Petersburg. Anyway. I don't know. But something calls me to be here. 

I always visit St. Petersburg alone. And this I was alone this time too. I can't be often there. So it was my 4th visit. And my friend meet me in gray rainy morning. And from my last traveling I waited only for relaxing. (No photo shots, no job). But I had another reason to be in Peter (it's short name of St. Petersburg). May no one don't believe me. But I never saw sea for my 21 years. Never. But I wanted it so much. In my native town I can see only river. But it is not sea, it's not ocean. And I can't say that Moscow river is like Volga. I can't say too, that' I don't like Moscow river. I love to place in Moscow very much.  But it's talking not about Moscow.

When I was in Peter. I told my friend that I want to be on Gulf of Finland today. Yeas! Only me can take this crazy idea. Cause it was so cold and rainy, was a hard wind this day. For truly, if I knew where it is I were went alone there. But my friend was with me. He asked me to stay. But I didn't. 

another reason about to be on Gulf was the beautiful song (or melody) Opus 28 - Dustin O'Halloran. (Opus28) When I just started to listen it, I wanted to be on the coast of the see.. When I listen I fell like I'm dissolving in the sound of music.

I was so happy to see splashes! Really happy. Still remember this feels. When you can't seem coast from another side! It was like a magic for me. You know. And nothing was important for me in this moment. Cause my dream was realized. I forgot about rain, hard wind. I was happy.

When I came back to Moscow. Some guys asked me -did I had job in St. Petersburg. They didn't believe me I was relax. And yeah, I took my Canon, but not to have a job. Just to take a pictures from my dream..

Untitled...

Hello everyone who read my blogs. I don't know how to call this blog. I didn't write for a long time. So my fantasy is over lol

I want begin from last Miss Isabel blog. She said that life is goes so fast. It is really true. Can't believe that I'm 5 years student for example lol But it is not important. She remind me the time when I just discovered the band for myself. I still remember this time. I think that I never talked about this with a members of YFE. Only with 2 guys from YFE family, if I remember right lol (I have a lot of friends and sometimes I don't remember what about I talked with them. Sometimes it's not do good) I think that a lot of you know that I started to chat with Jeff in myspace and from this time I started to be friend and a part of our amazing family. And I wrote about this in my past blogs. But I always shine about when I meet with YFE's creation and what YFE means for me. 

My first meet with YFE was in the end of December or November in 2008. I don't remember for sure. But I remember when it's happen:)  I was in the room of my x-boyfriend. We always liked to listen to music when we was together. So like as always she shared me with you. It was video Little sister. Well it was so amazing video for me. I asked him to give me music of this wonderful band. I liked music, vocal, back-vocal. I loved it from the very first time!!! After the video we listened to acoustic versions of Little sister, Midnight's crashing and other songs. And you know this songs was so magic and powerful. The evening was so amazing to me. 

Why can't I say to us? Just cause I didn't knew what he felt in this moment. We was in cold relationships in this time.  So your music was like a medicine for me in this hard time. I was in depression. And you helped me to stay okay, to be not crazy. So BIG THANK YOU YFE! I are a big part of my life from this time:) After few months I meet with Jeff. And my life again colored. It stopped be negative. I remembered what is positive and how to be happy. For sure I remembered about this early, but when YFE came in my life it's became brighter:)

And now I'm happy to be with you guys! 

Btw, I would like to talk about what happen with me in my last few months. A lot of you knew that we had exams time. And I closed this semester. But I lost one of my subject. I will pass it. I believe in myself, and I know that there is people who believes in me too!!! So it makes me stronger. And I knew that I will solve my problems! Cause I feel your supporting! It is very important for me! 

When my exams was over, I had a feels like I can't to describe my feelings. I felt a lot of apathy, and it a little  killed me inside. I didn't want do anything. I didn't understand what I read, what's going on with me. I felt myself like viewer of my life. It was like in cinema. When you watch movie and you can analyze it, but you can't do anything just because script was written. I don't know why this feel came to me. May be cause I had stress about exams, may be cause I had a lot of  job, or may be of this reasons both. Or may be this pause of my motions gave me one book. Well, everything is possible in this life:)

Anyway I feel myself great now!

May be in next few days I will get a new camera. And I will become a SFCC member so soon :) I promised to one of our brothers about this:) So I hope I will be with YFE family сloser so soon!

I don't know what to say anything. Just wanna say, that after writing this blog I feel myself very good. It is like a stone was left your soul. I think that it's great to share your thoughts cause it is helpful for ourselves. Don't be closed. Writing, talking, singing, do anything to open yourself. Don't try to be closed. 

We have one life, don't let  go your chance to be happy:)

impossibilities is beginning of possibilities

Hello everyone:)

How are you doing today? I hope you are all doing wonderful!

last night I watch this video http://vimeo.com/21385668 and it remembered me about crazy nights and special time with YFE and YFE's family. I love this guys. Cause their coming in life of a lot of people is very important. And this meet is life for some people. This meet is happiness for them. And it is amazing!

But what I really noticed in this video was the words about impossible and possible. I think that Jeff is really right! Cause it's true. That impossibilities is beginning of possibilities. It is true cause sometimes when we can't do something and when we not sure in something we can be better in something other that we can't do. Don't you think so? Sometimes people have to listen a lot of bad words about themselves and some people, who really have a beautiful heart or want to have it, are starting to crush all stereotypes around themselves. This people want to show that they are really not nothing. They are starting to fight with th world! And it is incredible.  When I was at school my classmates hurts me. They talked about me how I'm bad and etc. I knew it. And I started to fight with them. Cause I wanted be better then they were. And now I'm good photographer, I'm successful girl. And I'm happy! People says that my heart is beautiful! And for the first time 

it was strange for me. But not anymore. Cause I believe in it! 

When you can't do something try to find in what you are really good! Believe in yourself. You'll be pressed by talking! Never listen what about this talking! You have a dream. You want do it! So start your way to get your dream! It is possible! Really! What is possible for you sometimes is not possible to other person! It is absolutely normal for humanity! 

I love you! And I want you be happy!

Olga

Crazy nights:)

Hey everyone!

This morning was BLABLABLA Show with YFE! And I can't stay shine. I'm so excited about this. Cause last two days, morning, nights was so crazy for me!

Have you ever had a friends who can connect a lot of friends in one place in one time?:) And this friends around the world! I can sat that I have. And I really can't keep it from you. This two last nights changed temporary space. I still can't understand what is today. What is time in this moment. It is funny:) And what is really funny is results of this insomnias or abnormal sleeping . For example I talked last night with my friend Irene and what we did, watch:

And may be it seems so crazy. But I love it. Cause craziness makes us more alive and beautiful. Don't you think so?:)  

But this bad sleeping and insomnias really nothing when talking is about YFE! Cause being with them can give you more important things. And for sure it is love!

When the live chat's started I saw how many people there. And it is amazing. This people from all world! That's really wonderful. I noticed for myself how much they love this guys. And this really very important!  

I want share with you with next picture. It was taken after first crazy night/morning/day.

 Can you see how Alex is emotional?:) He is so expressive:) And I see how it is important to play the songs in this moment! I can see the power that he want to give us. It is fantastic! And yeas, Charles (we talked with Moose about this in last skype chat) I was touched this shows! I really was! And I'm still excited about this! And I think I will never forget this wonderful moment in my life and I'm sure you will never forget it too!

I love you guys for this special moments in our life which makes life more beautiful, more alive, more happy! Thank you

                                                                                                                                                      Olga  

The Magic Of The Holidays

The time is going so fast! And very soon 14th February. Can't believe it. Cause I think that Happy New Year was 2 or 3 days ago. The feel of holidays still with me. And now comes so beautiful holiday - Valentine's Day. I think this day is one of the magic. Cause LOVE is everywhere!!! That's amazing!!! All people communicate with each other. And  Love do it!!!

Actually I can't understand what I really feel about this day. Sometimes I hate it sometimes love it. lol May be it depends from my morning mood. I mean what I really feel after woke up? lol It is hard to explain. But I absolutely know that this year will be wonderful. Cause I feel a lot of love in my mind and in my heart! Love makes my life more magic. And I should thankful my best friends for this! THANK YOU!

What I really like in holidays is confusion when buying a lot of presents. Cause I see a lot of people who trying to find something really best for people they love. It is mean that everyone is important and I think that it's incredible! This day show me how much we are all beautiful and that we need in each other. 

So it means that I really only love this day and I can't hate it. Cause it is impossible! :)

The best words about Love:

Love is always patient and kind; it is never jealous, love is never boastful or conceited; it is never rude or selfish; it does not take offense, and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people’s sins but delights in the truth; it is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes. Love does not come to an end

I wish you all Happy Valentine's Day

love you all

Olga

this photo was token after I came back to Moscow. and we did it not special for Monday. hope you like it anyway

First step to be better

Hello everyone:)
It seems that I'm in a mood to write the next post and faster then it was before. By the way,  I will try do it regularly.
Today I wanted to say something about relationships between people. And mostly I will talk about fights.
I was influenced for this theme after the news I got last night from my friend. It said about a fight in my native town which was accompanied by shooting. I was shocked. Really. How is it possible in my small native town? I've never thought that in my home it will be so dangerous to live. And I started to worry about my family, all my friends who live there. Now I can really understand my mom. What she always feels when she lets me go to Moscow. Cause life in Moscow is more dangerous then in my native town.
I shared about this with my friend Eugenia. And we talked about this. Later we remembered what happened in Moscow in December. There was a very big meeting, and it had very scary consequences. A lot of videos you can find in the Internet to see what really happened, and a lot of posts you can read there too.
Actually I don't want to talk about this. I want to repeat some words I heard from one of amazing men with bright heart Moose.(Sorry, if I say something different, but I will try to convey the meaning of words). He said, that everything starts from us.What we want to show to everyone, what we want to be. Everything really starts from us and our hearts. And I absolutely agree with him. Many people ask how to meet with some problems, or how can I be happy when time is hard. I just want to be happy, to live happily. I don't want to fight with anyone cause it's foolish. Maybe some people think that I'm scared to be in the center of fight. But have they ever thought what are they doing? They make some problems for themselves. And it doesn't matter for me if people think that I'm naive. I'm not. I just can believe and hope, I can love and live enjoying everything that happens to me. I want to create my life beautifully and I don't want to make it dirty. And I will do anything what is possible from me. I'm trying to give my love to all people I love and I hope they feel it.
So I want people to look back to see what they did in their life to make it better and what they can do. Cause everything is in you hands. Your life is in your hands. Anyway you can hurt other people. But if you do that, you destroy your soul. Please don't make it dirty. You know in this moment I remembered about Dorian Grey. Was he happy to be always young? No. When he understood what he had done, it was really late for him to change his life. And if you remember all his life was soaked in a lie . Cause he created this life for himself.

I hope that after this post some people will think about becoming better and they will stop to make their life dirty. Cause I believe that everyone has something really beautiful in his heart, something what makes him happy, something what makes him love everyone and everything around him. Just try to find it:)

Wishes

It is m first post this year. Happy New Year to everyone:)
All holidays gone and there is hard time, cause a lot of my friends will start to study and pass exams. And until this time is didn't came I would like to write something. I really don't know what about to talk. And I think this post will be like a wish to everyone who read it.
My Happy New Year was with my family and my friends. And you know I felt love from them and that's was amazing! I didn't get a lot of present like a thing, but I get a lot of love :) 
I think that one of the best present for me was a skype talking with one of my favorite band - Your Favorite Enemies. This guys really awesome.( I must say thank you to one boy who meet me with their creation. And big thank you to Jeff who told me about skype chat :)) When I'm talking with this guys I always inspiration. They always support us to be best. You know. When I talk with them I feel how their really love us. And it such amazing. I feel myself really like a part of big-big family. And it is true. Cause guys always call you like a sister if you girl, or brother if you boy. It think it is very important. 
I can't wait our skype talks every time when it is just over. And I'm always excited when I'm in chat with them. 


And my second not so big present is my shots. I mean people approved my shots. You know. They like every shot I do. Doesn't matter how much people love my shots. They support me by comments and when they click on like. I always happy to see that I do something is really good. And I always happy to make shots with all willing. Cause photography is a part of me, a part of my soul. And opinions is very important in the way i do. So Thank You to everyone who commented my shots and give me tips :)

And for the end of my post. I hope you guys will have a very special Year for yourself. And I believe that You will be th BEST in everything you do. Trust me: Dreams is happen:) Just believe in yourself! :)