Hello everyone who read my blogs. I don't know how to call this blog. I didn't write for a long time. So my fantasy is over lol
I want begin from last Miss Isabel blog. She said that life is goes so fast. It is really true. Can't believe that I'm 5 years student for example lol But it is not important. She remind me the time when I just discovered the band for myself. I still remember this time. I think that I never talked about this with a members of YFE. Only with 2 guys from YFE family, if I remember right lol (I have a lot of friends and sometimes I don't remember what about I talked with them. Sometimes it's not do good) I think that a lot of you know that I started to chat with Jeff in myspace and from this time I started to be friend and a part of our amazing family. And I wrote about this in my past blogs. But I always shine about when I meet with YFE's creation and what YFE means for me.
My first meet with YFE was in the end of December or November in 2008. I don't remember for sure. But I remember when it's happen:) I was in the room of my x-boyfriend. We always liked to listen to music when we was together. So like as always she shared me with you. It was video Little sister. Well it was so amazing video for me. I asked him to give me music of this wonderful band. I liked music, vocal, back-vocal. I loved it from the very first time!!! After the video we listened to acoustic versions of Little sister, Midnight's crashing and other songs. And you know this songs was so magic and powerful. The evening was so amazing to me.
Why can't I say to us? Just cause I didn't knew what he felt in this moment. We was in cold relationships in this time. So your music was like a medicine for me in this hard time. I was in depression. And you helped me to stay okay, to be not crazy. So BIG THANK YOU YFE! I are a big part of my life from this time:) After few months I meet with Jeff. And my life again colored. It stopped be negative. I remembered what is positive and how to be happy. For sure I remembered about this early, but when YFE came in my life it's became brighter:)
And now I'm happy to be with you guys!
Btw, I would like to talk about what happen with me in my last few months. A lot of you knew that we had exams time. And I closed this semester. But I lost one of my subject. I will pass it. I believe in myself, and I know that there is people who believes in me too!!! So it makes me stronger. And I knew that I will solve my problems! Cause I feel your supporting! It is very important for me!
When my exams was over, I had a feels like I can't to describe my feelings. I felt a lot of apathy, and it a little killed me inside. I didn't want do anything. I didn't understand what I read, what's going on with me. I felt myself like viewer of my life. It was like in cinema. When you watch movie and you can analyze it, but you can't do anything just because script was written. I don't know why this feel came to me. May be cause I had stress about exams, may be cause I had a lot of job, or may be of this reasons both. Or may be this pause of my motions gave me one book. Well, everything is possible in this life:)
Anyway I feel myself great now!
May be in next few days I will get a new camera. And I will become a SFCC member so soon :) I promised to one of our brothers about this:) So I hope I will be with YFE family сloser so soon!
I don't know what to say anything. Just wanna say, that after writing this blog I feel myself very good. It is like a stone was left your soul. I think that it's great to share your thoughts cause it is helpful for ourselves. Don't be closed. Writing, talking, singing, do anything to open yourself. Don't try to be closed.
We have one life, don't let go your chance to be happy:)
